Thoughts, rants, ponderings, etc.

Recently my family have been more openly transphobic and it really sucks. It reminds me that when I come out, they won't love me anymore. It's making me feel really lonely but also really mad. It makes me mad every time they say stupid transphobic shit, because I've told them that what they're saying isn't true.

I've shown them evidence. I've told them that the people they're listening to are just trying to get their money, but they wont fucking listen.

Seeming cool and not woke is more important than their own family I guess. Apparently making that one coworker laugh is more important than me. They'll accept abusers into the family without a word, but a queer? That's too fucking far.

When I come out they're going to be mad, they'll be uncomfortable. They might even call me a liar for keeping it a secret.

My siblings won't even like me anymore.

Every day I listen to them perpetuate lies and every time I remember that they fucking hate me, even if they don't know they do.

I FUCKING HATE SUMMER. It's been reaching 30°celsius to often; this is such bulshit OOUGH

I got two new pink pens :) I also got the laptop charger.

My favourite pen broke and I'm actaully quite sad. It was a nice brght pink pen; very fun to draw with. Tomorow I'll go to office works and buy a new pen and laptop charger.